Worthiness
By Wynn Free

Worthiness, self worth,
I am an expert on these.
I wish I could say
I've mastered them,
But, more often,
They've mastered me
As my subconscious level of lack
Would cause
Outward situations to manifest
Which matched the inner.
The problem:
How does one learn to deserve more?
I contemplate the reasons
For my unworthiness,
And reflect on my oppressed childhood,
Misunderstood,
Rejected,
Rejecting myself.
I see how I shrank from life
Into safer places inside myself.
And now I'm trying to unshrink myself
And love you,
Because you are worthy
And to have you,
I must experience
In my heart of hearts,
That I deserve you.